i dont know would i be jealous ... or would that be a correct word to use ... i know ur mum were not here all this while and she came so u pei her ... but i feel that ever since that recent holiday both of us change ... it seem that u wuld stick with ur family more ... and i would like to stick with u more ... i noe i shuldnt be so selfish to stop u 2 from being together ... what hab i gone rong ... have my heart become so evil? i really got to wake myself up

maybe she was just right ... i have been hurting her feelings all this long because of what i said ... i shuld be watching my mouth and saying unthoughtful things that would hurt her ... until u are being prick by needle then u wuld noe that the needle is sharp and hurts ... only when u r being hurt then u noe that u shuldnt hurt people this way ...

only when ... only when

theres so many only when in this world ... who would know all of them ...

i just have to change my attitude and how i talk

sorry for hurting u again and again ... maybe i even lost count on how many time i hurt you ... you were the one keeping to urself when u were hurt by me ... taking all the blame w/o letting ppl know ... i am really sorry ... i dont know how many sorries that i said ... it seems to be never ending ...

but i would still remember our promise ...